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| author | Collin Williams <96917990+bluedragon1221@users.noreply.github.com> | 2024-10-24 20:03:03 -0500 |
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| committer | Collin Williams <96917990+bluedragon1221@users.noreply.github.com> | 2024-10-24 20:03:03 -0500 |
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diff --git a/md/35_Some_Rain_must_Fall.md b/md/35_Some_Rain_must_Fall.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..0ca8fd7 --- /dev/null +++ b/md/35_Some_Rain_must_Fall.md @@ -0,0 +1,64 @@ +--- +title: Some Rain Must Fall +--- + +The saying goes, \"Into every life some rain must fall.\" As I look back +I would have to say very little rain has fallen into my life. When Lori +and I began our lives together our motto was, \"We\'re so lucky!\" It +seemed like everything was going so well in our early years together +that we were being blessed much more than we deserved. We even +considered etching this motto on the inside of our wedding rings. +Everything was roses and life couldn\'t get much better.\ +\ +There have been only two times in my adult life when my sorrow was so +great that I was reduced to bitter tears of grief. I have kept these +times to myself. Not even Lori knows about these two times. I feel I can +share them now because it is a part of the point I started out with. +Only two times of overwhelming grief in 45 years of adulthood is still a +pretty good deal.\ +\ +The first time happened in Windham. I had just returned home after +attending the disciplinary council for Bill Chase which ended in his +being excommunicated from the church. Normally, only high council +members attend these meetings, but I was there as his bishop. I was so +blind-sided by the whole situation that I was in shock. I was his bishop +and home teacher, but had not seen this coming. I was alone in my +bedroom thinking about the gravity of the occasion. The enormity of the +eternal impact on so many lives overcame me to the point that I was +consumed with grief and wept bitterly. I felt like a total failure as +both the spiritual leader and stewardship holder over the welfare of +these people.\ +\ +The second time happened many years later after Lori and I had moved +back into the homestead house in Ridgefield. Getting laid off in Maine +was a severe shock and a personal tragedy, but I held it together +because there was so much to do to relocate from one coast to the other. +Through the years of figuring out what I was going to do with myself, I +just kept my head down and trudged forward. It was one of the most +difficult challenges I had ever faced. I had to totally re-invent +myself, at least in a worldly career sense. It was a difficult time, but +not one filled with grief. I still had Lori at my side and a wonderful +loving family to fall back on. I actually really enjoyed going back to +school. I felt very fortunate that I was able to do this and not have to +accumulate a staggering pile of debt. Then I landed my dream job with +Hewlett Packard. This was the culmination of three years of struggle and +effort. I finally felt like I had completed the re-invention process. I +fully expected my life to return to the earlier state of bliss and +roses.\ +\ +Loosing this dream job was a total devastation. My brother Tom and I +were working at the same job site and commuted to and from work +together. After being laid off, I had nowhere to go because Tom had +driven his car that day. Upon hearing the bad news, he offered to take +me home. It was a silent and sober drive home, but I held my grief in. +Lori was not home when I arrived there and my grief finally spilled out +in great waves of sobbing that surprised even me. Once again, my dream +had been shattered. By the time Lori arrived home, I had recovered +sufficiently to appear somewhat normal.\ +\ +Looking back at these times of sorrow, I can consider them with the +perspective that comes with time. How can I deny that I have had a +wonderful life when I can only remember two times of grief severe enough +to cause me to weep? All the rest has been full of joy and gladness. It +adds up to a colossal, good deal if you ask me. I wouldn\'t want to +trade my life for anyone else\'s, no siree bob. |
